Author Archives: kris gebhard

So. How do we survive apocalypse? I’m not gonna play around as the white [manly-enough] privileged dude to pretend that I’m the one to tell you the answer to that. And, I’m a psychotherapist, so yeah it is my responsibility to support folks in surviving whatever or whomever is trying to kill them And, I’mContinue reading “Thriving through apocalypse”

When my 4-inch amethyst earrings, purple shirt, perfectly matched tie, and flashing smile Stole his glance I didn’t feel sorry Not sorry at all For the moment of gender liberation even this Man Could feel

My body is convinced that some pollen native to Missouri is actually a treacherous threat and Thus, it would be better for me to not be able to breathe At all I am sitting in front of the air filter silently counting “in –1 2 3 4 pause – out 1 2 3 4 5Continue reading “Ode to life’s small pleasures”

Resolve is made up of re (to do again), and solve (to effectively answer a problem) When you’re bumping your gut along the lonely howl of quarantine It’s easy to think this state is fixture – an existence established Nah, let the resolve embrace you Yes, we have to solve the same evils, over andContinue reading “Made up of words invented by Shakespeare”

The last sound I want to hear before I fall asleep Is AarBear’s low growl snore the way his dozing face looks like A 30 year-old toddler I expect him to be cozying a baby kitten Or a kangaroo Or maybe a bear cub I’ve even checked before And then he sleepy chuckled maybe toContinue reading “The last sound”

[Some brainstormed ideas in April 2020] Have a conversation in which you learn something and teach something Call a relative or acquaintance w/whom you disagree and tell each other stories Write your own stories. Write about what inspires you, about whom you care about, and what they do that makes you smile Gather insights intoContinue reading “How to make change while in COVID-19 quarantine”

Dialectic: The process of bringing two contradictory truths into synthesis For example, full acceptance, and desire to change Irreverence: Sauciness, disregard of things that are usually taken seriously This poem is called Dialectic Irreverence to Dysphoria (it’s a trans poem about my body) Home for me would be a chest that’s all muscle A bustContinue reading “Dialectic Irreverence to Dysphoria”

I’m reflecting on the experience. When death asked me for a date, it was a dark and rainy night. I was pedaling quick to meet friends, someone driving a big hunk of metal didn’t bother to slow for a look, drove into me, knocked out a few ribs, shook my brain good I was knockedContinue reading “Three years after death offered me lollipops soaked in chocolate”

To the Male Gays / ze     Looking for slim to slender, swimmer’s built or ATHLETIC STR8 acting guy      Normal, masculine guy here      XXX, muscular kinky here. Prefer muscular, masculine and athletic non smoker      any normal and masculine guys out there? Looking for some safe fun here      No fats No fems …just XXX XXX that keepContinue reading “To the Male Gays / ze”

So I grew up Christian When I went off to college I was excited because I figured I’d probably meet my future husband there I didn’t actually picture myself, no idea what I was wearing, He was all balled out for the wedding, tux and all that, tall and smiling, arms spread, and when heContinue reading “On Marriage, Part 1: Log Home”